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Anti-Procrastination Day

I was right. I slept until 1pm today. Didn’t even get up in the am to get my pills!

When I did finally get up, I decided to accomplish SOMETHING today, so I snuggled under the covers with some mending I had been putting off for MONTHS.

Why do I do that? I mean seriously. It might have taken me 45min to get all that mending done. Three pairs of culottes (one with a nasty L shaped tear), a pair of pj pants, and replacing a button on an uniform shirt. Maybe 45min, and that’s including hunting up the thread, needle, and scissors. All that stuff sat on top of my dryer or buried in a ‘mending drawer’ for about 3mo. *sigh*

Well, it’s done now. I also filed our taxes tonight after church. Hopefully we’ll be getting a nice-sized deposit soon. Most of which will go to pay for the house taxes for the year, but still. =)

Mike also took the kitties in for their 2nd round of shots (due about 2wk ago!) and took the kids to the library (books due yesterday!). So both of those were “anti-procrastination tasks”, too.

Another one was the kitties’ flea medicine. It was only 2 days late, but it counts too. They were both such good little kitties! Samson did try to get the mean vet-lady back for poking him, but on the whole they did really well. They purred the whole time Mike and I were giving them the Frontline!

Just think what we could have accomplished if I had been awake for more than a few hours. LOL

It’s midnight so I’m off to bed for some bible-reading and SLEEP. I did get my B12 shot tonight, so hopefully tomorrow I’ll be a little more alert. haha


What a Monday!

Whew! Am I glad this day is over! LOL

It was a good day, though. I got quite a bit done even though we ALL overslept by a WHOLE lot. Like 3hr worth.

I made 3 trips to grocery stores, stocked up on chicken!!, got part of the bathroom scrubbed down, ate dinner and watched House with the kids (Mike had already gone to bed), and got the table cleared off.

The kids got all their chores done, showered, teeth brushed, and in bed by 9pm. We read 3 chapters of the first book in the Sugar Creek Gang series, and then they went right to sleep for a change.

Oh! I also called all but 3 of the SS teachers with a coupon code (AVA910) for $10 off an order of $10 or more at Oriental Trading Company. (I got home too late to call the rest. We have a ladies meeting tomorrow night, so I’ll give it to them there.)

Off to do my bible reading and go to bed.

FLYing or not?

So this week I haven’t exactly been following FLYLady’s protocols (not even the shiny sink), BUT I have been getting a few things done that I’d been putting off and I’ve also been allowing myself to just go rest. So am I finally loving myself or no? LOL

Some days and weeks are better than others in terms of energy/fatigue levels and in terms of pain. Apparently this is not my week. =(  I have just been SO unbelievably tired. I get worn out just chewing and so eat only the absolute minimum to keep from puking when I take my meds.

Monday and Tuesday were both that way. Just too worn out to do anything. I pretty much slept the whole time. Wednesday my energy was good so I did a bunch of laundry. I didn’t get it all done, but I made a big dent in the piles! I also went and got a debit card for the checking account, something I/we have been meaning to do for awhile and just hadn’t done it. So I had a little Anti-Procrastination thing going on there. lol

The neat thing is since Mike went with me, we were able to talk to a banker guy for a little bit about debt consolidation. We are going to fill out a couple of ‘worksheets’ to take back to him and he is going to run our finances through a program and print out a report that shows how fast (and HOW) we can get our debts paid off in different situations. This will give us something to look at to compare our options… keep ‘snow-balling’ like we’re trying to now, debt consolidation loan, or home equity loan. We don’t know whether we’ll be taking out a loan yet or not… this is just to compare and contrast with how we’re handling the finances now to see if we WANT to take out a loan. Kinda like a financial consultation kinda thing only it’s not costing us anything since it’s a service our bank provides. Too cool!

Anyway. Yesterday I woke up with some bad aches/pain in some of my joints. More than the usual, I mean. I took my pain pills which generally knocks it down to a level I can function at, but yesterday all it did was make me sleepy. They’ve never made me sleepy before, but oh well. It ended up I was awake long enough to get the kids to school in the morning, so like 45min there, then I was awake again from 1pm-7pm when I just couldn’t stand it anymore and went to bed. Yup. I was awake for all of 6hr before I went back to bed. Ridiculus, huh? lol

I got up this morning at 7am, got the kids to school by 8:30am and laid back down till noon. My left knee, shoulder, and hip all were hurting pretty bad (other joints ache, but not as much) and I was starting to get a migraine, so I took some more pain pills. Today they are doing what they are intended to do. YEAH!

We got the Christmas tree taken down yesterday and today we got all the bags put away. I also got a bunch of trash swept up and bagged out of the living room and front hall. There had been a couple of boxes of who knew what in there too, and we got them sorted and dumped. Then I took a good portion of my craft supplies that had been just stacked in the back hall out in the open and got them stacked in the back hall closet out of sight. Not the best solution since it’s all just stacked in there, not easy to see or get to, but for now at least it’s out of the way.

I’m feeling better about the way the house looks just by taking care of those things. My sink has actually been mostly cleaned out and empty this week, but not “shiny” per se. It is leaking, so I haven’t been bothering to dry it out (since it just gets wet again immediately) and at the moment the breakfast dishes are in there waiting to be washed.

The kids and Mike are mostly responsible for washing the dishes now since I do the cooking. We have a chart on the fridge with colored index cards with our names on them that shows who is supposed to do what on each day. This is working out SO much better than just trying to swap the kids out daily on chores because there was always the argument of “I did it last time”. I made sure that Mom and Dad had a turn doing the dishes and trash, too, so the kids wouldn’t feel like “they’re the only ones who do anything”. Since I do the shopping/cooking, I only took 1 night of dishes, the rest of the family each has 2 nights. The trash is pretty much the same, then the feeding of the kitties is split pretty evenly between myself and the two kids. The litter box is strictly the kids duties. There are advantages to being the parents! LOL

I left open spaces for other chores to be added as we get used to getting these taken care of. I think daily sweeping will probably be the next one added.

Guess I better go reboot the laundry.

Whew that was close…

Well my SIL threw her back out so she’s canceled her visit tomorrow. We’ll miss her, but I’m sure not missin’ the kill-yourself-cleaning I was doing. On the plus side, though… most of the house is clean or near-clean. =)

I can start FLYing nice and easy now! LOL

I’ve spent most of today clipping coupons, organizing coupons, and planning my menu and shopping list for the next week.

I plan on going after breakfast tomorrow morning.

I’m hoping to spend the rest of the day doing laundry (fun, huh?) while Mike helps the kids with some school projects.

Putting off “Finally Loving Yourself”, oh the irony!

I discovered FlyLady about 4 years ago, and I’m ashamed to say I STILL haven’t gotten my wings yet.

I did really good the first go around for about 2mo. I even rewarded myself for my first month of shiny sinks with a new bible.

Then my folks and brothers moved back in and well, let’s just say FLYing is near impossible with 4 extras (and all their belongings) sitting around the house.

I know, I know. All the more reason to FLY with FlyLady. Easy to say (and totally true), but extremely hard to do.

Things got so bad that I was actually planning to start FLYing again at a specific future date. No, this wasn’t procrastination per se (which, as a SHE I am very prone to do). It was more like I can’t wait until they move out, the first thing I’m going to do is can start back up with FlyLady!

When my folks did get their own place just over a year ago, I did join back up to the FlyLady’s mailing list.  I started out a little wonky, though. I didn’t practice the babysteps, even though I knew I should. Instead I decided my way would be just as good and just picked the pieces I liked and ignored the rest. I was really good at swishing-and-swiping every morning and I pulled off my very first Thanksgiving meal solo with her Holiday Cruising emails. I put together a Holiday Control Journal and a Home Maintenance Control Journal to go with the main Control Journal I had made years before (but hadn’t opened in almost as long!).

I’m sure you can guess what happened. It crumbled is what happened. Between being totally unrealistic and in some major denial over just how sick I was (and therefore what I was truly capable of doing) and trying to clip corners and skim over the boring bits, I got totally discouraged and burned out.

That was almost a year ago. I’m pretty sure when I started this blog (like 4 blog moves ago, how unsettled am I?) I mentioned FLYing in one of my first posts. That was pretty much the end of it.

I didn’t stop the emails, I just stopped reading (and doing) them.

To be fair, I do have to admit that there were quite a few days when I would not have been able to read and/or do even a portion of the tasks. There were plenty of other days, though, that I could have, but didn’t.

New year, new start and all that good jazz, right?


Thing is I really just determined (it is too a verb!) to quit the procrastinatin’ already and just get started again on the first of Jan. It wasn’t that it was the new year that made me decide/resolve to start over… I’d been thinking about it and “meaning to” for a good two months or so prior to that. Around Halloween I was feeling back to semi-human-enough again that I decided I needed to start over with the FLY system and that I needed to do it right this time.

I then proceeded to procrastinate quite nicely for the next two months.

All through the holidays I told myself, “I’ll just do the swish-and-swipe for this week because I just cleaned. I’ll get started with the rest next week.” Or  “The sink is the least of my worries right now, I just have too much to do. I don’t have the time to start FLYing again yet.”

I know! That makes absolutely no sense considering what the FLY system is and what it’s all about. Totally ridiculus, but there ya go.

Now I am feeling really stupid about it because now I’m really wishing I had just started over with babystep 1 back in Oct when I first started thinking about it. Why? Because now all those excuses I made to myself for the last 2mo have come back to bite me in the behind in the most ironic way. Now those excuses are no longer excuses they really are true now.

See, my sister-in-law is coming to town. In one week. Actually less than. She’ll be here Saturday. It’s the wee hours of Sunday morning, so less than a week. The house is (not surprisingly considering the lack of FLYing and the extremely recent holidays) a major disaster. I truly do not have the time to take one little babystep a day to get my house in order. It’s gotta be clean by Saturday morning. If I hold to the babysteps I will be at most up to shining my sink, laying my clothes out for the next day, 4min of clearing hotspots, and 5min of picking up one room.

Yeah. That’s TOTALLY not gonna cut it!

Plus, truth be told? I didn’t shine my sink until about 2hr ago, so really if I actually followed the babysteps properly? I’d only be up to shining my sink and two measly minutes of house-cleaning.

If I could go back and talk to myself 2mo ago I would say “HEY! GET UP OFF YOUR DUFF AND JUST DO IT ALREADY! If you start now you will have a wonderful surprise after the first of the year!” (The surprise being that when told SIL will be here in just 6 days, I could look around and say, “Oh! That’ll be nice. Guess I might better re-organize the bathroom drawers for her visit.” or some such trivial thing. I’d be able to say that because the house would, by-and-large, already BE clean and ready for visitors!)

FlyLady warns us that this will happen. I’ve heard it dozens of times. WHY oh WHY didn’t I pay attention?

The only consolation I have for myself is that Monday when our friends brought over our new fridge I did a real quick clean-up and was able to get most of the house ‘in order’. The kids just got through spending two nights with my brother. Those two things add up to the (albeit small) reassurance that it hasn’t been that long since the house was mostly ‘in order’ and so it won’t take too long or be too hard to get it back in that shape.

At least that’s what I’m telling myself. To tell myself anything else would be pure cruelty and that goes contrary to the whole Finally Loving Yourself system, now doesn’t it?

Want JOY?

The secret to having JOY is love. Here it is:

J = Love Jesus
O = Love Others
Y = Love Yourself

The bible says the greatest commandment is to love the Lord thy God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your might. You START by loving the Lord Jesus.

The bible says the second greatest commandment is like unto the first… love thy neighbor as yourself. Add to loving Jesus- loving others… but don’t forget yourself. Loving yourself above or before Jesus or others is wrong… but to not love yourself at all is wrong too. If you leave out loving any of these (including yourself), you will not have JOY. You would have Oy, or Jy, or Jo… but not JOY.

Likewise, if you love any of these out of order, you will not have Joy. If you put yourself first, you are loving yourself more than others and more than Jesus. This is breaking a commandment and would give you Yjo or Yoj. Neither of which is JOY. If you put others consistently before yourself, you’re on the right track, but if they are before Jesus, you’re still mixed up and without JOY. You’d have instead, Ojy or Oyj.

Nope. There is no other way to get JOY. You have to have love for the right people and in the right order and amount. That is…

1. Love Jesus first. More than anyone else (yourself included!). Put Jesus first in ALL you do. Period.

2. Then love others. More than yourself. Think of others before yourself. (Think: polite, courteous, etc.) Go out of your way to help others; go the extra mile.

3. Then love yourself. Do not neglect yourself. Some people go too far with loving themselves, getting all puffed up with pride and putting themselves ahead of everyone else including God, even though they may not set out to do so intentionally. Others, though, go too far the other way and think so little of themselves that they completely neglect caring for themselves. They come to despise and loathe their own selves…their own body and mind. This won’t bring you JOY either. Don’t neglect yourself; take care of your body and mind. Yes!, put Jesus and others first, but don’t leave off the caring and loving of yourself completely or you will be left with either Jo (almost right) or Oj (nowhere near right).

To recap: The secret to having JOY is in having LOVE for the right people in the right amounts and order. That is:

J = Love Jesus
O = Love Others
Y = Love Yourself

Bible references: Matthew 22:35-39, John 15:10-11

(see I Corinthians 13 for more details on what exactly love -charity- is, it will give you ideas on HOW to love)

In honor of Anti-Procrastination Day

I called a number I’ve had for weeks and weeks now, armed with not much more than a positive test result. Scratch that, armed with the Holy Spirit, so a whole lot more than a positive test result. I would not have been able to get through the call had I not done a bit of serious praying first. The short/good news is I have an appt the 17th… but now I’m worried…

The doctor himself called me back after I told the receptionist I’d had a positive IgM test through Igenex and that I’d heard the dr treats Lyme, and he did sound so nice, AND (and this was so cool!) he actually started out by believing me (which is so weird, ya know!). I know because he said I wasn’t very old but I’d been hit by a truck. Yup. That pretty much sums it up. And I was glad when he didn’t start asking me for symptoms, too, because that is something I’ve been worried about. That initial question. Not because I don’t have symptoms, mind you. Oh far from that! But because when asked outright like that, for some reason my mind freezes and shuts down and I have major problems pulling anything back out of the abyss of my mind in order to LIST them. So that was so nice, though I’m sure it seems kinda weird.

But then he found out I don’t have insurance, and maybe it’s just my imagination (ok, actually it probably is…probably more than a little of the OCD, anxiety, PARANOIA, etc creepin’ in), but it seemed like something changed.

Started off by saying it wasn’t free. Yeah, I KNOW that. I’m willing to pay. I don’t like it, but not because his expertise and/or the testing/meds are not worth the $$, just because I don’t like spending that kind of $$ on ME. My kids? Absolutely. Me? Never before. So it hurts me to do it in that regard.

And of course $$ isn’t exactly free-flowing around here, otherwise I would have had insurance years ago… I digress.

Why the difference I wonder? Do you think he is annoyed at/with me because he’s afraid I can’t/won’t pay?

I TOTALLY am going to pay. He will have his $$ every visit I go to. If I can’t pay, I won’t go in. I just won’t.

I HAVE gone in to the ER not being able to pay, but that is totally different. I have never and WILL never (if I have anything to say about it at all) go to a dr visit knowing I can’t pay for it. I just won’t.

Shoot. That’s why I’ve never gone in with all the various possible sinus or bladder or chest or kidney even… infections over the years. Cause I was not prepared to dish out the money. (I technically COULD have, but I didn’t see it as crucial since I had garlic and so could try that first, so therefore it was optional. And optional actually means not an option when it comes to ME. Know what I mean?)

So I did it. I grabbed the bulls by the horn sotospeak and actually DID something for FlyLady‘s Anti-Procrastination Day. I made a dr appt for myself. And now? Now I have to find the $300 for the appt. Scratch that. Now I have to (attempt to!!) exercise patience and wait on the Lord to provide the $300 for the appt… oh and also the $190 for the testing for Matthew… and also the however-much-it-will-be for the meds I need.

It’s ok, though. Phillipians 4:19, Chris. Also, consider the lillies, Chris. And also? My God is a great BIG AWESOME God and no amount of $$ is too big for Him to round up. Doesn’t even qualify as pocket change for Him.

Deep breaths. Need to go either hyperventilate (not a good option) or maybe veg-out for a bit to get my mind off freakin’ out about the whole “did I upset the dr? did I offend him somehow? did I annoy him? did I say the right things? did I just mess up horribly?” thing.

Yeah. Can’t concentrate on much else at the moment. OCD much? =/

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